Theres a lot of things i need right now, this journal, a specific person, people i miss dearly....my heart shifts and contorts a lot recently and its beautiful one moment and ugly the next. Pain is numbingly gracious to me, suffering is cruel and extends its reach everytime i think its at an end. Im so confused because this person means so much to me but im not sure anymore.....lives have always been short for me I only get to witness accomplishments done by "me" through anothers power, but now i have something that i want and a reason to keep going and see this world till its crushing end. Shes my evertything and always will be no matter how much i, she, or the world itself changes shell be everything to me no matter what. Even if things can never be how we want them to be i will always wish that shell be happy somewhere along the line i forgot how to trully tell her how much i care for her and love her and became something shallow because that appears to be what i always must become. Perhaps though she can see in this journal that i remember how we used to talk on here for hours and how i used to look at her art before i even really met her and how me someone who has seen and done so much would only get excited during the day when shed get on here and post a beautiful new picture or poem. I know i forgot what it was truly like to show that i love you and im sorry but i remember all these simple things that were so important to me and made me so happy and they were all due to you, because i love you with all my heart and always will. <3

Hopefully youll see this and realize that i know things have been fucked up recently but none of its your fault its because of me and ive forgotten how important you are to me and how special it feels to be able to talk to you and love you and feel my heart pick up its beating when i see a message or txt from you. Also i want you to know that things are gonna be diffrent because i want to be with you more than anything else in the world and i wanna fight for my love till my heart bursts. Please give me another chance....pretty please? haha


"All Humans Are Equal In Death"